You just gave me a shock
felt a sudden rush of talking to you
and I was leaning so close to the screen
looking at this beautiful picture
and you sign in with your cute face
*gasps
then *sigh cuz you'll never talk to me

Sick yesterday
for the first time mummy brought me to a doc
without scolding me at all

feels better today
going for church service on saturday I suppose
sigh I'm drained out
too much things to do
yet too little time for me

I'm gonna bake cookies for him
I wonder if he'll eat them
I wonder if he'll like them
I swore i was never gonna bake for guys again after jon
afterall he rlly kicked down all my hopes
that jerk.

I dont even know why I'm doing this for him
I dont even have that much confidence in him
I dont even know him well enough
there's no much "I dont" between me and him

sigh I rlly do miss talking to him

8:58 PM

Good friday was awesome and not
I was rlly touched with the service
but everything was ruined by him

Luckily the church people were so nice
I felt so calm and at peace talking to them
can't wait for my next service soon

Well, I thought I was gonna give up
I cried so hard for him
the third time
I cant even believe it
We're not even entangled

But today, the trip to town with gab
I figured out
Its the last try ever

I'm gonna do something for him
something I thought I will never do again
its such a huge exception
and if it doesn't work
yep I'll learn from it
and go back into my circle
for good

You just don't know how tough
all of these is to me isn't it
You're out there failing yourself
I'm here pinning for you

The kind of nibbling on my heart
when I see you online
but yet I can't reach out to you

That kind of frustration
when I see things that will make me think of you

I'm doped.
I've fell completely for you
when you don't even know of my existence at times

This is so tiring
Can't believe I'm making myself go through all this

11:02 PM

I forgot to take my med again
damn me ):

thanks to gab for bringing me to the doc
though it was a pretty funny scene
a boy and girl in uni going to the clinic
oh well
doc says too much acid

okay gtg updates tonight

10:58 AM

You just gave me a shock
felt a sudden rush of talking to you
and I was leaning so close to the screen
looking at this beautiful picture
and you sign in with your cute face
*gasps
then *sigh cuz you'll never talk to me

Sick yesterday
for the first time mummy brought me to a doc
without scolding me at all

feels better today
going for church service on saturday I suppose
sigh I'm drained out
too much things to do
yet too little time for me

I'm gonna bake cookies for him
I wonder if he'll eat them
I wonder if he'll like them
I swore i was never gonna bake for guys again after jon
afterall he rlly kicked down all my hopes
that jerk.

I dont even know why I'm doing this for him
I dont even have that much confidence in him
I dont even know him well enough
there's no much "I dont" between me and him

sigh I rlly do miss talking to him

8:58 PM
throughthehorror